Stevie Woods:author of gay romantic fiction

September 19, 2009

ROLL OF THE DICE for sale at ARe Books!

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Roll of the Dice

Roll of the Dice

By: Stevie Woods | Other books by Stevie Woods
Published By: Torquere Press
ISBN # 082008100845
Word Count: 4522
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Available in: Adobe Acrobat, HTML, Epub

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About the book

When Kyle finally gets the nerve up to tell Matt how he feels, Matt reacts badly, freaking out. A lot. Dejected, Kyle heads for the closest bar, where he meets a hot guy who comes on to him, which does a lot for his sagging ego. Just when things are about to get interesting, though, Matt shows up with a declaration of his own. Will it be the hot stranger or the man he loves?

An excerpt from the book

I’d rolled the dice and lost, though not in the way I expected. I hoped — more, I really believed — Matt loved me and that he only needed to admit it to himself and then to me. I hadn’t thought that he’d always accepted it but simply refused to allow free rein to his feelings, or even to consider mine.

I was angry and terribly disappointed that it seemed so easy for Matt to put his career before his feelings. To me there was nothing more important than love. I would never have put my career before the man I love, the man I had lost before I ever really had him. That thought made me both angry and sad.

I needed to stop thinking about this, it wasn’t helping; nothing could. All I was doing was churning up my emotions. I had to accept it and move on. I just didn’t know how; I’d carried this dream with me for so long and now it was gone. Still, I was determined not to sit around and mourn.

I’d shed a few tears of angry frustration when I first arrived home yesterday evening. I spent a couple of hours trying to decide what had gone wrong, but deep down I knew it wasn’t my problem, it was Matt’s. I finally fell asleep, but it was troubled by dreams and I awoke very early this morning still feeling confused and upset.

I couldn’t face staying in bed any longer and got up. I took a quick shower and then went to the kitchen for some coffee. I made myself some toast, but couldn’t eat it. I felt sick to my stomach.

I took my coffee through to the living room and sat on the sofa. I had to make a decision. The reason I’d plucked up the courage to put my cards on the table with Matt was that I nursed my desire long enough, it was time to go after what I wanted. I didn’t want to be on my own any longer, and why should I have to be when I was in love and I was pretty sure it was returned.

I’d been hurt once, seemed a lifetime ago now, but for a long time my work had been enough. As time passed I came to realize that I wanted more. I wanted someone special to come home to and relax with, to share my life, my heart and my soul with. I wanted Matt! Damn!

Now I knew that couldn’t be. I closed my eyes and let the sigh escape. I should’ve known better, life rarely gave you what you wanted.

Stevie
http://steviewoods.com
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